Monday, 31 May 2010

Better Than Love (HURTS cover)

<a href="http://catherinead.bandcamp.com/track/better-than-love-hurts-cover">Better Than Love (HURTS cover) by Catherine A.D.</a>

So You Want To Be A Writer


if it doesn't come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don't do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words,
don't do it.
if you're doing it for money or
fame,
don't do it.
if you're doing it because you want
women in your bed,
don't do it.
if you have to sit there and
rewrite it again and again,
don't do it.
if it's hard work just thinking about doing it,
don't do it.
if you're trying to write like somebody
else,
forget about it.
if you have to wait for it to roar out of
you,
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you're not ready.

don't be like so many writers,
don't be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don't be dull and boring and
pretentious, don't be consumed with self-
love.
the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to
sleep
over your kind.
don't add to that.
don't do it.
unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don't do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don't do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was. 
Charles Bukowski

"...don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission"

Sunday, 30 May 2010

You wouldn't have come here....



"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
(Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Chapter 6)

Saturday, 29 May 2010

Friday, 28 May 2010

Lauren Laverne 6music, Hype Machine & derring-do

Nearly time for the release of the Skeleton Songs EP. Lots of people have been really supportive and the lovely Ms Lauren Laverne made 'Missiveh' the track of the day on Wednesday on her 6music shows. You can download the whole week's MPFree EP (including tracks by The Like & Twilight Sad) from http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/laurenlaverne/2010/05/mpfree-ep-28th-may-2010.shtml
Also, we made it to no.2 in the hype machine last week:



Thank you to anyone who tweeted, retweeted, blogged, reblogged or listened!

Last but not least, I took a break from tying ribbons to fluff my way through "word of the day" for Wordia.com on Monday as I got to do one of my favourite things - talk about words and pretend to be a schoolteacher... silence at the back please...

Wednesday, 26 May 2010

Word of the day: derring-do

The first installment of my guest spot on Wordia.com


Friday, 21 May 2010

Saturday, 8 May 2010

Elderly Woman Behind The Counter In A Small Town

Insomnia... 'A bonewhite light, like death, behind all things'



Dreaded insomnia strikes again. Anyone who romanticizes it and tells you that it's linked to being 'creative' is just lying. I have to be up in four hours for a  rehearsal but even on those nights that I'm not it's hard not to wake up the neighbours with your 3am sudden writing epiphanies and there is nothing creative about a brain dead feeling, eye twitch and zero attention span.

I never used to have problems with sleep but now it feels like the dread of being the lone soul awake as the birds start tweeping at 5am happens more and more often. It's a self fulfilling prophecy perhaps, as the more you worry about not sleeping, the more likely you are to stay awake. I get really bad hallucinations if I get too sleep deprived so there's an added fear factor for me too. I'm not a fan of the black dancing shadows and tides creeping out from under the radiators...

The first hour lying in the dark can be productive - don't get me wrong. It is a great space for unravelling lyrics and trying out metres and patterns in your head as you unleash an imaginary torrent of kick ass payback to all those people who needed a great comeback at the time but it wasn't quite there in the moment. In this hour they all get their verbal tirade and it's the best rehearsal you never did for the all the things you wish you'd ever said.

I wish I could sleep like a normal human being. Any tips or suggestions? These sleeping pills are eating a hole in my brain....